I need to get out of my head

Thoughts running through

I feel like I’m turning blue 

Emotionally, mentally and physically draining 

I got to refrained for not feeling worthy or unwanted 

Wishing it was more to it 

Touched but not forgotten 

Loved  but don’t want to be broken 

Held but not made a fool 

This is all so new

Here I go turning blue again 

I feel so unwanted,

Am I not good enough 

I feel like I’m missing out but wanted to live  right 

Why do I feel this way 

I believe in purpose over pleasure but, Why is it vice versa

What am I honestly doing wrong 

I don’t want to be just a fling

But right about now, it seem as if I would have less concern and probably fulfillment but regrets

Why are simple choices are missed used for mistakes 

Why does it feel like I’m the only person dealing with this 

Why is it even Important 

What is my purpose

I believe in you

Why do I feel so less

When you say I’m royalty 

I’m just going through the motion 

The rotation on what it could be,

Why is such nature unpleasing 

-Barbara Gedeon